The moment i wake up this morning, i have a feeling that something bad is gonna happen. And it really happened. During my Gems class, my teacher asked us to identify our weaknesses and strength and classified ourselves into one of the four categories. When she is going through the four categories, she had used me as a example for being .. insensitive to other feelings.. Although it is quite embarrassing, what she said is true. Sometimes, i am really insensitive. For instances, i can be cracking jokes with a person who is feeling sad at that moment and the blind me, cant even notice it. Indeed, i do need some self reflection.
First : Self-centered sometimes, i am really a self-centered girl, a girl who only think of herself and neglected others feeling completely.
Second: Insentive I think there is something wrong with my thinking skill. i cant even differentiate between jokes and reality. I can be hurting someone when i think i was actually helping her or him.
Third: selfish I am really selfish at times. I just want all the things in my way. i don care others feeling and insisted that i am the one who is right. Furthermore, when people is asking for my help, i can be really mean. i will scold them for tnot getting it right away. These people, who had helped me lots of times, will never ever expect the favours i return them is a scolding.
Fourth: Childish You may think that being childish may not be a weakness. But, once childish act went overboard, u may find it disgusting. This is what i do everytime. Making people feeling disgusted.
Fifth: Too optimistic This is a weakness i have found out long time ago. But, it seem that i cant change my bad habit so easily .. being too optimistic, i expect others to help me all the way. I believe that every obstacles i met can be cleared easily. A habit which may destroy me totally.
Even i am starting to hate myself. Such a girl , who will befriend with her? Even saint will start to forsake her. I can feel that my friends is drifting away from me. Although what they say may be just jokes, i can feel it. A feel which is telling me, " you are really irritating, go away please". This is what i get for being such an idiot.
So, to all my friends and buddies out there, Thank you very much for tolerating me and My deepest apologies for what i have done to you all. I will try my best to change, just give me some time.
