Today is christmas day, everything have been going smoothly. Met my secondary schoolmates in jurong point and have our lunch at Fish & Co. We even exchanged our xmas present and i got a beautiful lip gross.
However, i dont understand why my life have to be so ................ Everytime i tot that the world is splendid and marvellous, heaven will pour cold water on me the next minute. yeah, there's how cruel the reality is.
HE was the one who ask me to buy food for him but i was running late for the dinner, so, thinking to buy him the food next time round. But when i was waiting at the bus stop, a bus heading to jurong point arrived first. Hence, decided to just buy the food and rush to the dinner instead.
Meanwhile, when waiting for the bus after buying the food, she called .. asking why i always lie (saying i will be on time for the dinner).. Well.. for god sake.. i was trying to do some good deeds for him. Specially took bus to jp once again and buy him the food. Okay, i dun blame her since i was the one who is late. I shoule be the one who is guilty. and the stupid bus is damn slow....
Almost running to the restaurant, sat down quietly with a BLACK face. (plz man, anyone who have been blamed for doing good deed will have that face). Ate my food quietly. Of coz watever he said, i dun care about him. just continue to eat my food. AND NOW, this is where the spoiler start....
When she went to pay bill for the dinner, i followed. Another him ask me to take the food. Well, of coz i wun take since it's not for me. So i just rolled my eyes on him and followed the "she". And suddenly, i heard somebody is shouting behind me. When i turned back, found out the one who is shouting is "him". Reprimanding me for giving a stupid face & attitude. In LOUD and CLEAR voice. In PUBLIC.
This is the part i dun understand... I AM ANGRY. Whoever in this world will show a BLACK face when u r angry. Well, unless u r a emotionless human being. And NOW, he's shouting me for giving him attitude?! Anyone who have a brain will know that i was late because of HIM. OF COZ i have the right to vent out my anger RIGHT?! im not a unreasonable person, if u apologise to me, i will accept it and forget the whole incident. And NOW, u expect me to smile to u sweetly after getting scolded for nothing?!?!
I'm a human being too.. i have emotion just like you. Why u can be angry and can't I?! DO i look like a robot or some lifeless thing. In the end, i still have to apologise. The world isnt fair at all. Just because i have come to this earth later than him, it doesn't mean i have to obey whatever he said and treat him as a god. I just need the basic respect. You can show it to your friends and why u cant show it to me?!
I apologised is not because i admit i'm wrong. It's because i just want the matter to rest. Today is christmas, everyone should be happy and celebrating together. I dun wanna spoilt the atmosphere. AND i definitely trust you that u have the ability to do whatever you want, but, have u think of the consequences? If i have argued back and urged you, what will happen? This world is not like a tape, you can't rewind the tape whenever u want to rewatch or redo something.
I seriously hope that you will think throughly again. You are not the king of this world. Spare other people a thought... Think before u start making action...
Of coz i have my wrongs, my anger management have failed badly and now, i am trying my best to improve it. So, just give me some time alright. remember i'm a reasonable person, if u have the evidence to prove that i'm wrong, i will apologise. I am not a babarian or a monkey. I understand human language and logic.
Well, i think you may not have the chance to read this message but i hope that u r reflecting yourself at the same time. I take a step back and u take a step back too, everything will be peaceful. You nice = I nice.
Okay, i'm done with my comments.
P.S. To those who dun understand about what im talking.. just leave it. Dont bother to ask me.. I will not reveal anything to you. This is my own problem and not yours alright? Sorry if i sound rude but this is the truth.
