At this second of my life [2 OCT, 5:01PM], I feel like a dumbass, trying to get away my miserable life, doing nothing yet desire everything to turn better with each breath I take. Everything is so messed up right now and the worst is I cant do anything to stop myself or change it. The feeling is like.. millions of horses are running towards you and the only thing you can do is to stare at them. You know you can run, but somehow you just couldnt or maybe u dun wanna to. I dunno. There may be a lot of different factors that are restraining you.. Family, Study, Career, Love, Friends or wadever u could think of. You know you could handle them individually but when everything falls on you on the same day at the same time, it's hell disaster. I know its wrong, I know who will be the one who suffer. I know the hell how much it will costs me. I know i have to move on, I know I have to be focus, but just tell me how when every other part of me refused. They told me life should be the one that you want, not the one you should.
It's never easy.. doesnt it..
I happened to see our past conversation.. im sorry.. only now I realised what do u mean. But Im really contented, because i found wad u have left there.
