hi guys, im gonna close my blog for a certain while due to personal reason =) thanks for reading my broken english posts for all this time! I'll be back... soon i hope..
-Becox i had enough of it....
I believe it will be a release.
2009 has been a tough year for me. With too many feelings and insecurity filling my life, it had made it difficult for me to see what is the the truth, what i really wanted and what i should deserve. Well i guess, im just not mature enough to differentiate the difference between black and white and the grey area. I just simply catgeorize it using my own opinions and way of thinking because i have always thought that since it's my world, my rules should be enforced.
This year has been too tired for me. You gave me the courage to step out, the strength to believe what i dont..yet you are also the one who push me back deeper into the darkness. The memories that we share together will not be kept in my heart but to be forgotten.. It will hurt but it will be better. Your promises has always been blank blank and still blank. Even if I have tried, it doesnt make any differences anymore. My birthday... I just hope it doesnt end up with others doing the same thing like you.. Your time, ur feelings, ur responsibility is always the highest priority. The things you deemed right den it is right.. you never bother to think otherwise.. You can always come out with reasons to cover up what u have done and i know it's a way to maintain the special attention u r getting and not for me.. It really hurt to know that ur feeling is being taken for granted of. It's really too much that i can just smile if off. Just think it silly, treat urself as me and me as you..
This time. It will mark as the end. because i 've had enough of everything.
