It has been a long time since I last typed an entry on my bed. I guess life is really busy for everyone, it's a stage which everyone have to been through when things are no longer just cartoons, candy and bedtime stories. Even when im lying on my bed now, my mind couldnt stop thinking/worrying about stuff. Families, friends, school, work, money.. lots and lots of things are there for me to ponder. Im not a pesimistic person but today I guess I want to be one. To share my secret and worries with a blog that doesnt have much readers, maybe one or two? or even none of them~ but still it will give me some sort of release to speak my feelings out
Families- With no doubts, I have a wonderful family. I have an awesome dad who will always be there to care for us and protect us. Despite of his long-working hours, he will make sure he will call home during his break to make sure everything is alright. He never fails to remind us to lock our door safely and to drink more water and eat on time. I have a cute mum who likes to sing and never fails to give her children advices when they met troubles in life. She will always satisfy our wants and needs as long as it is within her ability. I have a charming brother who never fails to get on my nerves. He have a devil mouth but whenever I need his help, he will be there as a brother. In that past 20 years, they've been the ones supporting and guiding me wholeheartedly without any condition. But in the past 20 years, I have been creating troubles, throwing temper,screaming at them for being over-protective and too naggy, wasting my dad hard-earned money and being ignorant and naive. I'm really sorry dad, mum and bro. I really do love u all.
Friends- I'm really happy that I have met them in this lifetime. They are the ones who know you the best other than your family. They know what's ur favourite color, your favourity idol, your dream guy and your favourite dishes. I would said family are our body and friends are like oxygen. You need both of them in order to survive. Sometime, they are able to give comments which actually make you think hard on the things you have once insisted on. They have been my supporting pills in life but eventhough i dont want to admit, I know that I have been taking them for granted sometime. Im sorry my friends. I really do love you all
School - This is the last topic i wanted to talk about. I have actually gotten sick of studying and I really cant help thinking of giving up. I have been studying from primary school to secondary school to polytechnic and lastly university. This process may be short in words but the real-life process of it is really dry and tedious. You study and take a exam and you get a certificate but it's not enough and so you have to go through the same process again. Even if you have a passion in the first place, the vicious cycle of studying will somehow diminish it unknowingly. But that was what I had thought, after watching an old movie yesterday, it changed. Life is not like a game which you can restart unlimited number of times after you died. Since there's only one chance, why not live your life to the fullest? Dream the biggest dream and believe is the magic word as always. Im sorry me, I really do love you.
Friend, if u're reading this, please dont give up and stop moving. It's okie to take a rest and think before you move off again. Never switch off your engine because you have still yet to see what's in front waiting for u :) There's 6 gears in life.
Switch to neutral gear when you're tired
Switch to 1st gear when you're still finding an answer
Switch to 2nd gear when you found it
Switch to 3rd gear when you're ready
Switch to 4th gear when you're right on target
Switch to 5th gear when your feeling tell you so
Sorry there's no reverse gear!
