Feeling down down down. I just cant gather enough enthusiam to bring some color into my life for the time being. Yes, i'm in school attending lesson obediently, going out and chilling with friends and living by the lists of rules and responsbility i have set for myself. Basically, everything that is visible looks fine but I have a gut feeling something's not right, or maybe something is gonna happen or maybe it's just my PMS? some craziness I have gained when school just started less than a month. Blah~
Goal is one of the thing I have been taught today. Human's mind are so amazing that sometimes we couldnt answer some of the questions we have set
Is your goal specific?
Is your goal attainable?
Is your goal a goal?
The lecture make me think twice about my so-called goals. Are they real goals or just some thing to feed my hungry self-esteem? Thinking back, maybe it's not related to goals but more to planning, most of time when I planned some big events or activities, it usually end up with nothing. I did put in effort but whenever things go into a mess, my mind follow and will eventually lost interest in it. Once I lost interest, i will be more lazy than any pigs to move my ass into this matter again. Maybe some thing is really wrong with my planning. Some thing that is so crucial yet invisible~ Darn! so much thinking and I can feel all my brain cells are exploding by each second. Please, if you hear me, I need someone to guide me. Some one who is strong and tough enough to teach me and lead me on.
Enough with the emo, let's get back to some topic that are more appealing. I will be meeting tra and xiaoqian tomorrow for a good good dinner! Cant wait for tomorrow to come! :) Life may be harsh but at least we have friends..... and nice food around us! hahaha~ Loves
Cheers!
Chloe
P.S. The tiredness from the soul will not subside that easily.
