I'm burning right now. The culprit is not the sun but the people who i love. They're my precious gems and I adore them as much as myself. But sometimes, because they knew you will listen and respect them, they submerge themselves into their own pool of self-interest. Without any slight consideration of my side, they decide things based on what they think is the best (to them). When there're any resistance from me, they will make sure to use their 'senior or elder' position to kill every of your reasons. No matter how good the reasons are, they will argue their way through and left you only with one choice - which is to obey the decisions they have decided for you. Please, can you please listen to me? When things are left unsaid, it doesn't mean that I am willing to do it. I was just trying to maintain the good relationship we have. I wanted to be a good girl but I need to be a bad girl some time to pivot up my emotion. When everything is one side down, one day it will just go hay-wired and poof! nothing left. Please dont use the same tactic all the time and expect it to work indefinitely. We're just pretending it's still workable because we respect you. People change, including me, when you start to have your own mindset. I'm not the same little girl who will obey your instruction all the time anymore. I've grown up, I have my priorities and you are in it now. Please dont make me change my mind and decides to strike your name off. I love to be with you. But please, look from my view, see what im trying to convey, hear what my heart is shouting. The girl who you thought to be is not the same anymore. She've grown up with a working brain and she thinks. And her name is not robot.
