It's a late night entry! Kinda feel like writing all my negative feelings away. I think I really really really think too much, assume too much and wonder too much. When i really care abt something or someone, u have my full attention. My brain will auto generate all the possiblities and whether i should do this or do that. I would say more like a mind map, with everything planned and predicted accordingly to my thoughts. It's abit of like psycho ~ *kinda scary* but it's really really tiring. maybe i should say im too tensed up? because im afraid to lose something i deemed precious, i will take any risk in order to safeguard it? or maybe im just a plain sore loser who wants everything? Sometimes, i will ask myself to take a deep breath and chill. But sometimes, the facts can be so harsh that i make myself stay alert at all times. And because of this persistent changes, relax tense relax tense, i lose all my focus in the end.. I found a dumb person when i look in the mirror. Is that really worth it? I always asked myself. But till now, unfortunately, i cant give a definite answer.
