At the moment when someone told you things will get okay, you ignored and shrugged off their comments, thinking how the hell they'd know the hell you're going through. After a few days, after things calmed down slightly abit, you understand how magical those words are. Because standing around you are all your friends who truly care. Thank you so much to all my friends who have supported me for the past few weeks. I know that I'm being nasty and irritating. I just couldn't control. The helpless feeling just activated my absolute-defense mode. I thought I have gotten over my past but apparently, Im just trying to pretend. Pretending that I am fine, pretending that I'm strong and smart enough to avoid the same mistakes beautifully. Sorry that I have over-reacted and being too intense. Things shouldnt be so complicated.
To people who have disappoint me, I have learned my lesson well but I wouldn't blame or hate you all. At least, you told me that Im not as strong as I have believed. Pitifully, my confidence and belief cant even stand one tiny little shake. So, I will work hard and move on! Wanying, Ganbarimasu!
Ohmygawd.. I have an assignment which is due on next thusday and I haven even start phrasing the sentences (though I have written them down in point form) 4 pages! *horror* I have a test on next friday as well. Five chapters of notes are waiting for meee.. *fainted* no wanying, you must try your best! JIAYOU AHHHHHH! chiooooooong ahhhh!
P.S. When people don't love you in the way you wanted them to, it doesn't mean they don't love you in their own way.
