Decided to pen down some of my negative feelings. praying for the strength to stand after each of the confessions.
I gradually stayed quiet.. not because justice and reason are always on your side. It's because.. no matter what I've said.. how I said it.. my words will never reach you. you have never never never take my words seriously. At some point, i really wonder, am i wrong to take you seriously as well..
I hate to say it but gradually, i lose my smile. No, i dont blame u for it. I'm the one who is restricting myself into my own corner. You say you dont want this, I took one step back. You say it's your way of doing things, I took another step back. You said you're busy, so I shifted backwards. You want your freedom, I looked at you. Every part of me wanted to hold you back.. but I stood still.. with all the blessings resounding in my head.. Please trust me.. I thought every step i took.. some things.. be it how small it is.. some things you will do eventually to prove that it is all worthwhile. but it didn'.. I cant feel any.. it didnt happen..
Because love cannot be built day by day..
If you think you've done alot.. maybe you can think again after reading these
You said you put in effort to talk to me, but, when i talk to you, does it count as efforts as well?
You said you're busy, but, do you know i shifted my schedule for you no matter how busy i am?
You said im a friend with benefits, but, do you know how much tears I've shed because of it?
You said you considered my situation, but, why do a dinner has to become so complicated?
you didnt broke my heart, deary. but you broke what i believed in..
